14/08/10, Saturday.
I guess I don't like memories that much. Happy of having those moments but sad that it's all over. Friends in school, I guess I'm not even needed. Well, maybe it's true. Memories with laughters but tears shed alone where no one knows. I don't know why but I guess I can't be like my idol. In the show of course it's easy but I'm used to hiding my feelings. I felt hurt when ever I feel left out. Well, I just know one thing is SMILE~ Cause when i smile the pain is inside hurting me only and not others. I'm sorry. But thats a way how I protect myself. I'm just a soft shell turtle. It's no lie.
As for online, Remember memories in garena? I bet almost every forgot even you. Well, I miss those moments where we play tree tag and how we all team up to bully our opponent. Feel frustrated when they say we cheat and of course the laughters. I can still remember how i met so many people letting them freely in my life. But I always get hurt easily. Is that the reason why I feel so scared? Even twinki now, after all the second thoughts and all, I'm avoiding truth, avoiding them. Don't want to get so close to everyone of them except for some because I know them in real life. The rest I just want to move on and keep in mind that it's just a game. What happens inside, whatever they say, It's just a beautiful lie.
I don't want to have happy memories , treasure them while everyone else forgets it. Just like camps and all. You meet each other, felt happy and wish to continue the friendship. But once it's all over like war. No one will be rememebered. I guess only you know how i feel right? Feeling so sad over something that no one appreciates makes me the biggest fool.
I may look stupid remembering everything, so I guess keeping my distance is the best solution. There may still be memories but not as much as what i'm suppose to have. I'm sorry to those who i'm going to dissapear from your life. Cause, it's just ONLINE! I rather dissapear now and keep those happy memories where they are rather then having sad memories to cover up the happy ones. Lasty, I'm sorry. I really am.
-Yuki-
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Twinki Ro
14/08/10. Saturday.
It's quite a nice day today except for last night. Guess what happen? Haha. I banged my head on the wall. How? Well, I thought it was my pillow I guess. Cause I remember I pulled myself up and wanted to sleep on my pillow. Then OUCH! It hurts. A LOT! Haha. Anyways, when i woke up this morning. Someone called me. Well, practically I woke up cause of that call but I didn't pick it up. I'm sorry. I don't want online to intefere with my reality. I just have to say, I was still sleeping. But if that person finds this I'm dead right? Sobs.
Anyway lets continue, I went to my parents room wanted to prove i woke up and EARLY but they weren't there. So I already guessed where they were. I know you know that you know I know! Hahas~
On the computer and play. I saw a chat box and it wrote there " brb~be back by 7.30" I think. When i saw my clock it's 8+ almost 9... Stupid.. does he mean 7.30pm? HAHA! His my friend so i was kinda laughing at it.
Then around 9.30 I think, my bro woke up ... He asked me where mom and dad went. I told him "GOLF!! Bleks" It was so funny but boring in twinki cause no one was there. Went to eat breakfast and played again. Haha~ Owh, I kinda feel weird writing there dear diary now. But, It's special right? Haha.
Anyways, that stupid head online already and it's his lucky day! He got Ghostring card, this and that card! PISSSSSSEEEDDDDD!!! Sobssss!! I kill ghostring so many times and no card. He is sooooo lucky! So his on my hitlist! Wahahaha.
Studying history now! Sobbbsss.. What to do? Exam is this monday. Sobs. History, Bm and Sc this monday. I need to brush up on my history and sc! I NEED 3A's!!! So that I can rebond my hair! Cool right?
By the way, Dylan is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DEAD! you know why? He wrote on his facebook status that if 150 people like his status, he'll cut his hair BALD! and now its like 100+ I think. Haha, Can't wait to see bald dylan! I bet it'll be funny!
Tatas~~ I better continue studying! Haha
-Yuki-
It's quite a nice day today except for last night. Guess what happen? Haha. I banged my head on the wall. How? Well, I thought it was my pillow I guess. Cause I remember I pulled myself up and wanted to sleep on my pillow. Then OUCH! It hurts. A LOT! Haha. Anyways, when i woke up this morning. Someone called me. Well, practically I woke up cause of that call but I didn't pick it up. I'm sorry. I don't want online to intefere with my reality. I just have to say, I was still sleeping. But if that person finds this I'm dead right? Sobs.
Anyway lets continue, I went to my parents room wanted to prove i woke up and EARLY but they weren't there. So I already guessed where they were. I know you know that you know I know! Hahas~
On the computer and play. I saw a chat box and it wrote there " brb~be back by 7.30" I think. When i saw my clock it's 8+ almost 9... Stupid.. does he mean 7.30pm? HAHA! His my friend so i was kinda laughing at it.
Then around 9.30 I think, my bro woke up ... He asked me where mom and dad went. I told him "GOLF!! Bleks" It was so funny but boring in twinki cause no one was there. Went to eat breakfast and played again. Haha~ Owh, I kinda feel weird writing there dear diary now. But, It's special right? Haha.
Anyways, that stupid head online already and it's his lucky day! He got Ghostring card, this and that card! PISSSSSSEEEDDDDD!!! Sobssss!! I kill ghostring so many times and no card. He is sooooo lucky! So his on my hitlist! Wahahaha.
Studying history now! Sobbbsss.. What to do? Exam is this monday. Sobs. History, Bm and Sc this monday. I need to brush up on my history and sc! I NEED 3A's!!! So that I can rebond my hair! Cool right?
By the way, Dylan is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DEAD! you know why? He wrote on his facebook status that if 150 people like his status, he'll cut his hair BALD! and now its like 100+ I think. Haha, Can't wait to see bald dylan! I bet it'll be funny!
Tatas~~ I better continue studying! Haha
-Yuki-
Friday, August 13, 2010
Orion~
13/08/10, School Day -Friday-
It was awesome in school! Super fun! You know why? First, there was drama, whole class went down watch drama. Second ACCOUNTS WAS FUN! For the VERY FIRST TIME! Well, nothing much to say, and my DRAMA WAS !!! HAVOC! SUPER SAD!!! Sobs!!
Owh, Did I mention to you that there's a singing competition? I'm joining and singing a new song! Scary ~! But I'll try my best! Hahas.
Nothing to write. But before this, there's so many things I wanna say to you. Maybe now too hyper! Haha.
-Yuki-
It was awesome in school! Super fun! You know why? First, there was drama, whole class went down watch drama. Second ACCOUNTS WAS FUN! For the VERY FIRST TIME! Well, nothing much to say, and my DRAMA WAS !!! HAVOC! SUPER SAD!!! Sobs!!
Owh, Did I mention to you that there's a singing competition? I'm joining and singing a new song! Scary ~! But I'll try my best! Hahas.
Nothing to write. But before this, there's so many things I wanna say to you. Maybe now too hyper! Haha.
-Yuki-
NO to ONLINE GUYS!
12/08/10, School Day -Thursday-
Today I skipped school but STUDIED at home! I studied Science and tried to finish up all my homeworkds in komsas! Unfortunately, I'm not done! Sadly!
From today onwards, I've decided that I'll no longer live in the fantasy anymore! Forgetting only memories. Painful, Happy, Sad memories. each J-Pop songs that was played reminds me of each fragment of memories in games. From now on, let's face reality. There's not even a single guy that will tell you truth in games. NO more going over close to online people except girls~ Hehe. Plan A, Ignore any message or calls from online people! Safety first! Haha!
Every online guys are liars. Never trusting one EVER! ALSO, if they could leave thier gf for a game girl, those guys will never be faithful! doubt they even know what's faithful.
So let's leave online in online and reality to reality! Hahas. Nothing to write! Haha
-Yuki-
Today I skipped school but STUDIED at home! I studied Science and tried to finish up all my homeworkds in komsas! Unfortunately, I'm not done! Sadly!
From today onwards, I've decided that I'll no longer live in the fantasy anymore! Forgetting only memories. Painful, Happy, Sad memories. each J-Pop songs that was played reminds me of each fragment of memories in games. From now on, let's face reality. There's not even a single guy that will tell you truth in games. NO more going over close to online people except girls~ Hehe. Plan A, Ignore any message or calls from online people! Safety first! Haha!
Every online guys are liars. Never trusting one EVER! ALSO, if they could leave thier gf for a game girl, those guys will never be faithful! doubt they even know what's faithful.
So let's leave online in online and reality to reality! Hahas. Nothing to write! Haha
-Yuki-
Back to blogging.
11/8/10, School day! Haha. -Wednesday-
I'm back! Haha. I've been having fun, sad, happy and horrible moments. First, my friends birthday is here and my whole plan was wrecked! Why? None of my friend have an oven [baking oven] in thier house! Sobs. So now I'll have to buy him something or make something for him! Bleuks.
As for the happy moment, hmmm I guess games cout right? Well, it's fun in Twinki Ro. The new server from Breadou Ro. Random and lame! Haha. Not only that, there is many 'drama' there too! Sad right? Sobs!
I'm starting to love writing my blog down then typing it now! Gosh I'm lame! Wee! Speechless!
Ow! About school. I miss someone! Hehe. Guess who? HEY! It's not a GUY! 100% SURE! It's a girl. NO ! I'm not lesbian! Haha. Well, she was the person who supported me with a smile! Not only that, I'm starting to find myself useless and in no place. Well, don't wanna be in any position but, the person I miss already have another one. Better I guess. REALLY CLOSE! So what? Haha. I'm fine! Damn! I'm not typing what I wrote.
Aihs, nevermind. I don't wanna make this a script that I have to COPY then PASTE. I guess, I don't know what I want to even say. I don't think anyone except some people will even notice when I'm gone. Yes! I bet you will also forget me! Not true ? It's super duper true! Haha.
Anyways, my friend was gang bang by teacher today. Me and my friends first thought was cause we were gambling. I don't usually gamble but it's boring in class! Anyway, MY POINT IS, he came back and told us.... The teacher -dicipline teachers- caught him for his HAIR! NO! His hair isn't LONG. In fact it's practically what we call BALD!
The teachers claim he wants to pick a fight with the teachers. This is because, our teachers said don't cut bald hair cause it makes you look like those... errr.. gangster? HAHA!
But, MANY teachers also said that they cut until bald is GOOD! Stupid right? Aihs, lets ignore my school~ Haha~
TALKING ABOUT MY FAVOURITE SHOW! Well, I love drama's! Any drama suits me except for those boring and SUPER DUPER SCARY shows~ Haha. Lin, I think you pass me your DRAMA FEVER~! Haha.
I miss you lin, kelly and celine!! Sobs Sobs! I'm so lame. You guys may have even forgotten me! SOBBBSSS! Haha, I'm joking! They still remember me~! I guess cause I talked to them like... RECENTLY! Hehes.
Thats all for today.
-Yuki-
-ImY-
I'm back! Haha. I've been having fun, sad, happy and horrible moments. First, my friends birthday is here and my whole plan was wrecked! Why? None of my friend have an oven [baking oven] in thier house! Sobs. So now I'll have to buy him something or make something for him! Bleuks.
As for the happy moment, hmmm I guess games cout right? Well, it's fun in Twinki Ro. The new server from Breadou Ro. Random and lame! Haha. Not only that, there is many 'drama' there too! Sad right? Sobs!
I'm starting to love writing my blog down then typing it now! Gosh I'm lame! Wee! Speechless!
Ow! About school. I miss someone! Hehe. Guess who? HEY! It's not a GUY! 100% SURE! It's a girl. NO ! I'm not lesbian! Haha. Well, she was the person who supported me with a smile! Not only that, I'm starting to find myself useless and in no place. Well, don't wanna be in any position but, the person I miss already have another one. Better I guess. REALLY CLOSE! So what? Haha. I'm fine! Damn! I'm not typing what I wrote.
Aihs, nevermind. I don't wanna make this a script that I have to COPY then PASTE. I guess, I don't know what I want to even say. I don't think anyone except some people will even notice when I'm gone. Yes! I bet you will also forget me! Not true ? It's super duper true! Haha.
Anyways, my friend was gang bang by teacher today. Me and my friends first thought was cause we were gambling. I don't usually gamble but it's boring in class! Anyway, MY POINT IS, he came back and told us.... The teacher -dicipline teachers- caught him for his HAIR! NO! His hair isn't LONG. In fact it's practically what we call BALD!
The teachers claim he wants to pick a fight with the teachers. This is because, our teachers said don't cut bald hair cause it makes you look like those... errr.. gangster? HAHA!
But, MANY teachers also said that they cut until bald is GOOD! Stupid right? Aihs, lets ignore my school~ Haha~
TALKING ABOUT MY FAVOURITE SHOW! Well, I love drama's! Any drama suits me except for those boring and SUPER DUPER SCARY shows~ Haha. Lin, I think you pass me your DRAMA FEVER~! Haha.
I miss you lin, kelly and celine!! Sobs Sobs! I'm so lame. You guys may have even forgotten me! SOBBBSSS! Haha, I'm joking! They still remember me~! I guess cause I talked to them like... RECENTLY! Hehes.
Thats all for today.
-Yuki-
-ImY-
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
WooHoo~
I'm kinda happy!!!! (:
Why? Well... Cause..
I met someone new~ (:
I'm officially giving up on ... (:
And, I'm kinda happy i went out ~~
Also, Karate kid was a BLAST!!! (:
Well, nata's friends fetched us there haha.
And the driver was... kinda cute ><>
Owh owh.. also he drive seriously fast and we all laughed and said we had no seat belts.
It was seriously fun! (:
Thats all!
Hope can go out with them agn.
And.. I forgot to pay him back ><
-Yuki-
Why? Well... Cause..
I met someone new~ (:
I'm officially giving up on ... (:
And, I'm kinda happy i went out ~~
Also, Karate kid was a BLAST!!! (:
Well, nata's friends fetched us there haha.
And the driver was... kinda cute ><>
Owh owh.. also he drive seriously fast and we all laughed and said we had no seat belts.
It was seriously fun! (:
Thats all!
Hope can go out with them agn.
And.. I forgot to pay him back ><
-Yuki-
Sunday, June 13, 2010
More about you than camp.
I finally made the decision to close this blog.
Is it a good or bad news?
I can write more stuff at least.
Firstly i should really talk about the camp but..
Not really in the mood but..
I was shock that when i finish my talent time i saw you..
Yes... You sms-ed me and i relax but i still lost but.
I really needed to sms you.
I sms-ed a start but no reply from you until i saw you online.
I guess i misunderstood you yesterday.
All the sweet happy stuff was all a dream i guess.
I think I cried about an hour for this and talent time.
Ishhh I can't sing already.
Haihs..
I guess... a friend affected my mind! SHIT YOU!
Yes, I'm pissed!
I remember there was a talk about relationship.
I went and ask the lecturer personally and she told me to continue but.
Why when i was about to give up on you... able to do it but you gave me hope.
And when i trusted the hope you just.... let me down.
Am I really very naive? What i'm thinking always ends up wrongly.
I guess it's life....
Whatever it is... it's stupid to cry but...
YES! I'M A CRYBABY!
What the hell do I do now? What do you expect from me?!
I want to give up but... when i saw you yesterday when i see your sms,
I wasn't scared of the talent time but.... your appearance.
I imagined you'll walk in and see me but..
when you came i saw your bro and friend which was a girl.
She seemed bored but you stayed.
Was is all for me? or.....
I don't know what is what anymore.
Please... Just... Talk... To... Me...
-Yuki-
Is it a good or bad news?
I can write more stuff at least.
Firstly i should really talk about the camp but..
Not really in the mood but..
I was shock that when i finish my talent time i saw you..
Yes... You sms-ed me and i relax but i still lost but.
I really needed to sms you.
I sms-ed a start but no reply from you until i saw you online.
I guess i misunderstood you yesterday.
All the sweet happy stuff was all a dream i guess.
I think I cried about an hour for this and talent time.
Ishhh I can't sing already.
Haihs..
I guess... a friend affected my mind! SHIT YOU!
Yes, I'm pissed!
I remember there was a talk about relationship.
I went and ask the lecturer personally and she told me to continue but.
Why when i was about to give up on you... able to do it but you gave me hope.
And when i trusted the hope you just.... let me down.
Am I really very naive? What i'm thinking always ends up wrongly.
I guess it's life....
Whatever it is... it's stupid to cry but...
YES! I'M A CRYBABY!
What the hell do I do now? What do you expect from me?!
I want to give up but... when i saw you yesterday when i see your sms,
I wasn't scared of the talent time but.... your appearance.
I imagined you'll walk in and see me but..
when you came i saw your bro and friend which was a girl.
She seemed bored but you stayed.
Was is all for me? or.....
I don't know what is what anymore.
Please... Just... Talk... To... Me...
-Yuki-
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