사랑해....

7/09/10-Tuesday

There's tuition today... haihs... Feel so sien..
Should I skip tuition?
I really need a rest....
So many thoughts on my mind...
If only I slept longer..
IMYRB! <>
I feel so stupid now..
Don't know what to write..
I'll study now!
Hope so..

-BrokenTurtle?-

Scattered Memories.

06/09/10-Monday.

It's holidays. My friends and I planned to go out during the holidays. First person who popped in my mind was you. Went out with family. Why walking I remember about gifts. Gifts that we joked, at least maybe you think it was a joke. I was checking out the wallets. But, I stopped. Why am I being so stupid now? Stupid baka dumb Idiotic Yuki! Wake up right now!! Leave his world... How can I? Haihs... I miss him a lot. My best buddy said just forget about him. Thanks a lot for listening dear~ Love you~ Hahas.

Disappintment hits me like the wave. I'm not going to complain anymore! I've to wash away my sins. I cannot say bad words, bad stuff about others! I've to turn over a new leaf so I won't feel devastated! These days in facebook, I don't know what to do.. I want to post something but I don't want to at the same time. I miss you. I really do.. I guess, Don't know is better then know.

-Yuki-

Mute.

I don't know what to say at the right time or bad time. Mind as well be mute. It's not easy to be mute though. But, it's good. As for my recent post about my friend. I'm sorry. I was pissed that time. But, I'll say again, I don't care what you think. You read or not I won't care. I won't say I'll not care about your feelings but I'll just try to ignore it.

Something has been bothering me lately. I just don't know what. I wish someone could just save me from this pain and sorrow. Everytime I online I just want to see you online just to prove you didn't block me. But I keep on hoping for the worst. I don't know what you did and I'm planning to move on. It's so hard ... Wonder why.. Can't wait to go out with the girls and guys. Hope my mind will stay with me and not go over to fantasy world. But, I guess if I pass by that place ... I'll remember what you said to me.

I'm not going to tell anyone whats wrong with me anymore. I don't know who I can trust. Who is capable of listening and who will stay with me till the end. I give up. I'll be muted from now?? No idea.

-StupidTurtle-

Speechless.

04/09/10-Saturday.

OMG~! I forgot to blog! Sorry. Hahas. Nevermind I might blog late anyways.. Nothing to write also... I might temporary stop twinki AGAIN. Cause, my exam marks.. Some improved.. Some dropped to the core. Gosh! Ah well... Sad... Owh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED BROTHER AGAIN! It was yesterday though. But I fb him and wished him in real life~ Hahaha!

I love the way you lie. Nice song. The song he hears. The time we spent even though we were just friends nothing more. It was fun while it lasted. I'll back of so you can live better. Ain't that right? I guess this time.. He won't bother... Happy Ending? Hahas. I should just focus on studies and ignore it. I've nothing much to lose anyways. I really miss you these days... But if you blocked me in msn, it's okay I guess. I won't even be online these days. I hope... haha! I seriously need to get on with my plans!!! STUDYYYYY!!

-Yuuki-
Siens...

Best Friends?

02/09/10-Thursday.

Haha, Best friends? Few years of friendship are just useless. I don't give a damn about you anymore. You just piss me off now. It's like ask you already free or not. You say yes. Ya, you said yes but guess what? YOU SAID NO AFTERTHAT. WTF? Come on la! Seriously if you're free just say free then don't go random saying eh, might go genting. Then suddenly singapore. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN OF WHERE YOU'RE GOING! I DON'T CARE! THE SIMPLEST QUESTION I ASKED YOU, "ARE YOU FREE?"

GIVE ME JUST THAT ANSWER AND NOT RANDOM ANSWERES DAMMIT! Ish. I really don't want to talk to you guys anymore. It's way better without me. And guess what? I feel so much better now! Yes, I admit I was happy when I could talk to you. But do you bother listening? I know one listen. But the other one? You get distracted damn easy. Talking serious you change the topic. Whatever la! I don't care. If I'm destined to be a loner, Let me be a loner then. If you're thinking I've attitude problem. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! I don't need to care and know of what you think of me! So before I be rude towards you people. Stop bothering me with things I no longer care. Especially when it's said by you people.

-YuinTheng-
P.S. If you come questioning me is that you I mention here, well too bad I won't even say a word. I have not been telling you all about whats around me anyways, I don't hang out with you guys and the best part of all you all don't give a damn. So why should I give a damn about your feelings.

Appreciation.

2/09/10-Thursday.

I've been thinking of someone whenever I want to go out and all. But from today onwards, I'm going to forget about this person. It's impossible for the both of us. This person hates me now I guess, just nice. But why does it bother me?

I just watched a drama. A grandma got banged by a car while chasing after her grandson who was walking faster than her. When that scene was on I started to cry. I miss my grandma.I wish I learned from young then I had more chance to appreciate my grandma. I'm speechless. If only more people know how to appreciate family members and also friends. I'm speechless again. It's over.. So many things to write but don't know what to really write now.

-Yuki-

Back to School!!

1/09/10

Recieved a message last night.
In chinese.. I don't know who.
I thought it was zing at first.
Until I asked him a while ago and it wasn't him.
Gosh, who is it?..

Anyways... School.. nothing to say boring. Haha!

I kinda feel weird now.
I think no matter how many comments I get.
I just want to hear from her only.
Her words are everything.
I have no idea why but I really love her!
She is kinda the most important now!
Haha, Love her~
Nothing to say.
I'M NOT LESBIAN!
Don't try to guess who is she.
You won't know!
HAHA!

XoXo Yuki~