o.O

Haihs~
Today damn heartache.
My friends are leaving me slowly one by one~
But I made Fiona sad ):
HAHAHAHAHA! In the end was cause the koperasi open late! HAHA!
<3 Fiona and Sho yin and Nata~
Thanks for supporting me ~!! :D
Having you all is enough then those who just guess and not know the truth.
Especially someone who scolded me for no reason in fb.
Deleted him though.
It killed me even more
when I thought about what me and my friends
shared during the first few months.

However, from now onwards.
I won't care what my friend does to you,
Ignore what ever you tell others.
Ignore what ever you say to me.
And pretend being fine.
I don't want to cause trouble.
I'll talk to you~ Yeah!
But, I'll still talk more to Fiona and share more time with her!
Laughing a lot with her around~
(: But I almost cried also ):
Cause, I saw how my friends trust you and not me?!
A person known for a year.

One thing I feel like asking you.
Are you faking in front of everyone cause of Him?
Or are you really not lying?
I don't know what to do but.
I chose to not care, not bother, about you or even..
Trust you.
So~ I can be a happy person~ :D
<3 those people who trust me and is my TRUE TRUE friends :D
Muackss~~ XD :P

-Yuki-

O.o

Wow, My friend..
I really speechless.
She made your life shatter in a day.
I could pay back for you but you don't want.
I really respect you.
I won't take any actions on that girl then.
I really don't know what else to say..
-Yuki-

Sorry and forgive.

I'm sorry. Thats all I can say even though I know it does not change anything. I'm really sorry. I really hope we can be friends. I can't undo but I hope I can at least erase the sins even though I know it can never be erased for eternity... all I can say is sorry.

-Yuki-

I'm sorry _ _ _ _ _!!! I HATE YOU _ _ _ _ !!! You know what? You made me make two regrets. Making me believe you which was just a lie! God dammit I seriously hate you! You made me! I don't even want to talk to you! So get lost! Scram! Call me idiot? Scold me? Cry?! NONE OF THAT IS MAKING ME TURN BACK!

-Yuki-

What to do?

My heart is starting to think weather doing it is right or not. I don't know should I tell the truth or not. If i tell the truth your life will shatter that makes no benefit but... all my friends are convincing me to tell the truth. I don't want myself to regret cause I've already did something horrible due to trusting a liar. Should I tell the truth and see her life shatter with my own hands or should i ignore and tell a lie seeing you happy while i suffer? I don't know what to do at all.I want to tell the truth but if i do, i'll sure blame myself for making you cry. Why am I so different. Normally i won't care cause you made my friend lost everything in a day. She might even hate me now cause of you but i still will consider her as a friend. I don't hate you anymore. I was angry yesterday but i'll still delete and block you but.... there are so many things in my mind now. Not knowing what is right and wrong anymore... Should I shatter your life making me the bad guy or should i just let it be?

-Yuki-

I don't know what to do.

Have been working on my book.
Agree with ang -.-
My book really like roller coaster in the starting T^T
These days very tired and stress..
Help friend, my problem.
Yesterday I went to my old tuition but afraid to enter.
I remember back the days i purposely come early just to see you.
I saw you one time in the stairs with your friend.
I was afraid and angry at you but... I still love you.
Is this what love is? Loving someone? Giving him everything but nothing gain.
I no longer care.

My friend's problem is killing me.
Tell her one thing she do another.
I no longer want to bother already.
It's not my business even though she is my friend.
If she want's to keep the relationship in such a sad way.
Continue I don't bother.

Before I forgot, I really want to go back to form 2.
I don't want to start playing online games.
I don't want to know you.
I rather stick to being someone who is happy!
I really don't want to know anything about you but when I want to let go.
You always pop up in my mind making my heart flutter.
I'm mixed up with my book and reality.
I don't know why I'm being so sensitive and I hate it!
If i don't know how it feels wouldn't it be better?
I don't want to feel anything about L.O.V.E.
It's happy but also torture!!
Why is there Love which can be use to hurt a girl?
Maybe i put it in my book.
The girl get played just some people I know.

I hope I can be a little brighter in the future.
-Yuki-

Trust?

I don't know what to do.
Two of my friends may not know that I have eyes to see.
I know whats going on between them.
But I feel useless because I could not help you both much.
One of my friend,
I can help you but you don't seem to be able to let it go.
My second friend,
I don't know how to help you because your hiding everything from everyone.
I don't want to do anything drastic.

Trust?
Why is trust so important?
Why is trust so hard to be built?
Why is trust so easy to shatter in just seconds.

I don't know why are relationship so complicated.
I also don't know when I can find one.
I hope i don't find one but I feel lonely sometimes
Which is unbearable.
Writing my story based on relationships isn't boring.
But giving advices, repeating them.
The process really kills me.

Even in a million years, the cycle keeps going on.
Trust, Breaks, Fallen, Trust again?
Once a trust is broken and fallen.
How long does it take to trust the same person again?

As for L.O.V.E.
Trust is to continue ones relationship and with it,
Misunderstanding and Jealousy will be reduced.
However, once a trust is misused, a relationship could be broken down at the very moment.
Therefore trust is somehow dangerous.
I don't know when will i love someone again after the incident.
Should I tell them both the truth??
What will happen then.
But since it's been a year and more.
Haihs, I can't help my friends.
I feel helpless and useless.

-Yuki-

Graveyard :D

Hiiii~!
I'm back from perak a while ago~
Watched tv then online ~~
Well, woke up at 5:15 around there -.-
Dad force me wake up T^T
Then drank a bit of oat that mum made~
XD then go car!!
Travel to Perak. Slept almost the whole time :D
Then reach Perak...
Go eat sin~
Had Mi hun for bfast~
Then go "Sam Bo Tung" xD~
damn smooky =-=
Plus!! I was thinking of jigoku shoujo.
Then freaking out when inside all the ashes..
Then helped grandma find her sister and i think brother >w<
Burn stuff for them ...
Fire burning hot D:
Like sauna..
Kinda like it :P
Then go to graveyard -.-
Stupid cars!! Damn jam =.=
Went temple with mummy and grandma while daddy in car.
Help mummy hold stuff while grandma pray outside.. xD!!
Quite fun >w<
Then go find grave~
This time super lucky did the whole thing really fast :D
So... not really tired :P
Burn burn burn~!!! Smoke!!! T^T
My whole hair smells of ashes.
While my body smells of sun lotion mixed with sweat :P
Dirty me ):
xD~!
Whole way thinking of my book-.- Listen sad song~
Then visit my grandma!!
I miss her T^T
She look so young as usual~
I could still remember how she look till now..
It's been like... -counting- 9 years.... >w<
I love her!! :D Haih~!..
Scared mummy and daddy next T^T
NOOOOOOOOOOO! Don't think negative T^T Sad!!! T^T
Anyway then came back had a delicious lunch :D
Then come home~!
Photo's at bottom!!
In graveyard saw 2 animal and took pic of it xD
Then worst part... got SPIDER T^T
Owh ya!! Spider lily~ I go find bb~! :D

PHOTOS~! :





-Yuki-