._.

This is weird.. I wanted to post this in my "Secret" blog but.. Changed mind..
I met "him" again.. My heart felt nothing. But I know, my feeling towards him was hidden.
I met him in school on monday and today I met him in tuition. Sms-ed him after his tuition.
I wonder... Why am I liking him again? I'm suppose to forget LOVE and move on!!
Why can't I forget him... I remember the times I use to "Stalk" him and the times..
I use to sms him... I just wonder.. Am I annoying to him? Or whaT? OMG!!! No emo!!!
Guys hates emo!!! Wait!! Why do I care what he thinks !! I'm just burdening myself again!!
Since it was over the moment he said no chance. Why should I try to get hurt ANOTHER time..
I never understand guys and never will...

OMG!!!

OMG!!!! DERRICK ADMITTED IT!!! NATA IF YOU READ THIS!!!
BEWARE!!! DERRIK IS GONNA "KAU" YOU!!!!
HAHAHAHA!! NICK!!! I'M SO GONNA TELL HIM!!! HAHAHA XD
I think derrick joking wei but nata!!! I'm so gonna tell you smth the next time we meet x

Ok about Breadou:
Ermmm nothing much ler =x I did not play long today... Hmmmm, skipped yesterdays Woe..
WRITING ON A BOOK!!! hahahahas =D I'm doing terrible though =x
Ok lar !! I need continue hacking my brain xD

To Kelly~

Dear kelly,
I think I finally understand what you mean. I don't know if you want others to understand or not but, I'll do the same with you. I'll sms you my plan if this is "secret". Plus maybe I won't be playing dear~ Cause I wanna buy TWILIGHT BOX SET!!! or VAMPIRE DIARIES!!! So~ Hehehehe =P
I'll be doing a lot of reading I'll try to break the record k~ I hope 17 Nov comes faster~ Thats the day I get my credit =x eeeee!! so long!! Or!! kelly!! You sms me your "Plan" then I'll reply you if i manage to buy credit =x ok~? sms me your answer =D!!! I gtg now =D

From Yuki~

This is for kelly

As the title already said This is for kelly if your wondering about wat.
Its that I'm gonna stop ro for her untel she plays.
If kelly doesn't play I wont! There is nobody else online as much as you!
I don't want to online then. When you play again sms me please kelly.
Please attend my birthday party too. My last post.
If I post it won't be here also. So good-bye
My second regret too. I think my life is similar to kelly somehow >_<
But I really hope kelly you wont stop. Cause if you dont sms me I will stop bloggin,msn and even coming online! serious! I cant on com play other offline games. I got lots = ="
So don'tthink i'll be bored. PLEASE READ THIS KELLY!!
As for Celinny and lin. I'm sorry =x I'm being hated well kelly says no but still. I think i am!
And I wont be online so sms me. I might not be able to reply u but I'll try asap =D so
SAYONARA PEOPLE!! THIS BLOG WILL BE DEAD TILL KELLY SMS ME!!!! NOBODY ELSE!!
ONLY KELLY WILL MAKE ME ONLINE!!! SO FIND HER =D!

Hahahaha

This is gonna be a short post !! Well thx to Kelly,celinny,nyx who cheered me~
I felt better. =D I have a new family btw =)

My grandpa:JunSheng
Grandma:Kelly
Mummy:Celinny
Daddy:Joel
Brother:Nyx,Derick [diff derick =x]
Son:GK
Dear: None~~ =D hahahaha
Uncle:Twister,burnthem

I think that is all !! XD
I was emo but thx to nyx and kelly and celinny lar~
Ohyea!! CELINNY AND JOEL MARRIED TODAY!! WOOO
CONGRATZ ONCE AGAIN!! XD Ok byebye~~ Gtg Sleep~~ =P

Well..

Second day without ryan.
Is he still pissed? I'm still wondering.
I know he was when I asked for the break up.
But I am pissed at him not trusting me.
Once again. Well.. hunting item 99 to put my mind of things.
Singin all my heart out.
Luckily nata jie jie finally bet with me.

We were in the pool =x Then I was like beggin her to bet with me.
Until the money word came out she agree xD
So it's like I won't like ANYONE EVER. If I do I'll pay her RM10.
Then she kept excluding someone. Well I kept saying even that guy cause even if he won't get hurt.
I will and I don't want anything to repeat any longer.
So Thx jie~~ =P

oh yea~ Last night. Me,Nick and nata at msn damn fun xD
Nick and me kept saying nata and her ''dear'' derrick xD
But actually they are not dears =)
We kept making fun of her cuz Derrick was like:
Me: Eh whr is your "dear"
Derrick: She not online
I was like OMG!! XD
Then,
Derrick: Tell me when she online
After few minutes *pop* Nata ~
Me: eh your dear online =P
Derrick: thx
XD I was laughing till almost rol on floor.
Then Nick msn me say nata the P*G online xD
Then she off cuz her msn like sot sot = ="
Then when she online me and nick made fun of her XD
Seriously fun XD

Yea and ytd. Mommy know about me and ryan already =x
Well listening to paramore~ =P
I better go back game wei = =" XD
Ok lar that should be all XD

Idk~

This is the I dont know post.
Cause I feel blur yet hurt yet I don't know.
I hurt someone and I know it ._.
I cant say anything good cause I cant =x
Yea and a lil happy cause.
Larry and I chatted.
Yesterday was me and roy.
I totally blew him off last time.
Regretted it.So did the way I blew death off..
It was kinda lame = the reason lar.
I don't wish for them to forgive me but roy did = ="
xD larry too~~~ =D kinda happy but something has been bothering me.
I don't know what.I don't even want to know what.
Yesterday was kinda the most time I felt like a jerk.
Pissing ryan off. I just can't take it that he does not believe me.
Well he does not say it. I feel it only.
I was a real jerk but I really don't think I should be with him anymore.
Not only him. Every guy. Likes me or not.
I cant bother thinking about it! I no longer want to hurt anyone.
I just cant stand the pain watching them get hurt all cause of my doings.
If that person does not like me that deep. A day would cure everything.
But if it deep. . . It'll take a longer time.
I broke my heart few years ago.Broke it again this year.Broke it again yesterday.
My heart has left nothing to be broken.OMG!!!!
Why am I so emo >_<
Mummy and kelly and lin will kill me!!! Aaaaa. . .
Well... I'm normal by keeping things to myself.Well DEEP Things.
My true feelings and I don't think anyone can open it.
Even if there was. I don't think I'll give that person a chance.
Its not fun hurting the ones you love.And Its not fun hurting the people you care.
Ok. . . I better go wei I feel the emo aura = ="

Sienzz ._.
Went club also bo use ._.
Swim that time try not to think. . .
Still failed . . .
Nata and ann gie there so lucky I not emo ._.
Only under water wth ._.
I really shud stop swearing . . .
Mood swings = ="
Well seriously siens lar!!! Want to just forget everything!!!!
. . . . . .
Emo again? Omg = =""
Kelly not online.Linnie duno doing what.Celinny went out.
And at this post I do not want to talk about my dear._.
He will read this but so WHAT!
what the heck la! Zzz Making me sound like a player wtf!
I seriously hate being called INDIRECTLY a player ._.
He tried calling I don't care. . .
I'm in no mood now. . .
I just don't think.
It exist...

Oh yea btw . .I cried in afternoon XD Cuz of this seriously sad show!!!
The mother was 100% accused but... SO SAD!!!!!! ._.
Watched twilight in morning brother became spoiler cuz I call him spill the beans
HAHAHAHA!!! Can't wait wei!!! TWILIGHT SAGA!!!NEW MOON!!!!WOOO!!!!
I wanna go!!! Nata also XD
So maybe I'll ask kelly they all if they all wan =)
/gg I call kelly watch with me and whoever that is going xD
Tommy go say its for couple = =" L8r no shoulder hold wth xD
So lets see.... About my birthday plan =P
Venue:Sunway [changed to shopping cuz movie XD]
Date:14/15-11-09 [my bday on wed. but changed to sat cuz of tommy = ="]
Day: As I just said Sat~
Who is going: Comfirmed: Kelly,tommy[he better = =],Lin,and duno who else I think cawyn they all =x
Cant go: MY BELOVED MOMMY = =" xD haha nvm =P
That is all for todays post lar~~ Wanna chat msn d =P

Gift From HAO!! =x hahaha

Lol smth to post again!!! hahaha I can't believe Hao found my blog.
By typing Breadou Ro.. But when I typed it I found kelly's blog >_<>_<>
So he gave me a present XD He's such a good GM!!! XD
Seriously his really good!!! So COME AND JOIN BREADOU RO!!!!!
The present he gave me is on top =D

My Early Birthday Gift From Kura And Jo2

KuRa's gift was on top with kura in the first photo XD
Second book gift is Jo2 =D
Wooo~~ hahahahaha =P
Ok!! So let's see today Kura gave me a birthday gift XD
I think yesterday Josiah gave me a present too XD
Early presents I tell yea~~ And all is game present~
But it's enough XD hahahahaha
Kura's gift was kinda more exp ._. hahahaa Cause its a donation item =x
He gave me a Dragon Spirit With a card in it XD
Welll THX A HELL LOT KURA~~~~ He's such a good friend XD
When he said present? I was like WTH you serious?? LOL
Well when he needs to use it I got to borrow him hahaha =P
As for jo2... Guess what he gave me XD
If he gave me in real life I'll be seriously scared XD
Cause he gave me a DICTIONARY!!!! XDD
But It's kinda good ok =P
Dictionary's are usefull!!!
So Thx Jo2 =D Hahahaha~~
The two gifts I recieved 1 month before my bday XD


[EDIT]
The present below is from my dear Ryan~~ =D

MY SEALED VALK HELM

Oppsss Too bad I cant post about my birtday plan yet cause ._.
Not confirm Blueksss~~~
But I'll post all about my SEAL!!!!!THE PHOTO'S ON TOP IS ME AND MY SEAL~~~
HAHAHA I LOVE MY SEAL!!!!
THX TO JAMES,MY BRO,JON,RYAN,JOEL, AND i think tht's all =x
WELL MORAL SUPPORT FROM KELLY,CELINNY AND LINNIE =X
hahahaha =D thats all XD

MY BREADOU FAMILY~~~

I'm a poser =x

The horror~!!!
I look ugly x=The photos on top are lame =P
I was posing at that time lar =P hahahaha
Lol! Sorry for not posting for so long ...
Hmmm Did not know what to write plus.. Alot of thing in mind =x
Sad... =P Bleuks..
Added Roy again. He was not angry but he wants an explanation = ="
What to giv ._. I don't even know what my friend did ._.
Lucky I change pass already.So she can't hack.. Sien..
Had a really weird dream yesterday.
Well.. Ok! I know what to post =P
I'll write about my BREADOU FAMILY~~~
ok!!!

- My Daddy~ Joel -
- My Mommy~ Celinny -
- My Grandma~ Kelly -
- My Grandpa~ JunSheng -
- My Dear~ Ryan -
- My Stepfather~ Tommy- He keep wan giv me away ._.
- My step-sister is MY GRANDMA WTH!!!! -
Well Yea Its confusing hahahaha~~
=P Blueks~~ OUR FAMILY~~~

Blehhhh... You don't get it nevermind ~~ As long as I understand Hahahahaha
Ok~~~ Next post is about my birthday plan =P
Oh yea Before leaving~ Thx to ryan =P
I FINALLY GOT SEALED VALK HELM!!!! I'LL POST THE PICTURE in my birthday plan hahahaha
=P Bluekss~~

Weee?

- Dear took the top one XD -
My dear and me~



Today damn bored =x
Morning took ''pills'' afternoon only effect XD
High like shit XD Then kelly scold me cause she thought i talking crap XD
Then ryan = my dear we took some photo ;D
Hmmmmzzz.... Tommorow go school~~ Weeeeeee
I duno ler =x I'm so confused about something =x
I'm seriously in trouble hahaha
Weeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
I duno lar what to post..
Today got nothing to say also
but 1 thing!!! I LOVE YOU KELLY~LINNIE~CELINNY~ And of course who a? XD
My sweetheart RYAN~~ XD bleukss =D
Hahahahahahaha =D

lalala

Weeeeeeeeee~~~
Sha La La La La~~~
Hahahaha!!!! FINISH PMR!!! WOOHOOO~~~
And... I accepted ryan today =x
Hmm if you all wondering who he is~ I dont care!!! Wahahahaha~~
Cause his my dear not yours =P
OMG!!! He is seeing this i think =x
OK!!!! So lets ignore him~~ haha
So mean of me >__Anyways KH was EASY .. Hope so =x
=) Anyways Went gym with nata~~ GUESS WHAT!!! I SAW JUN LIANG!!!!
He damn cute XD So chubby =P and cute XD
Anyways Nothing to write d ler =x LEts go PLAY BREADOU~~~ WEEEEEE!!!
=P hahahahahahaha

Weeee?

Hmmm Now is suppose WOE time ._.
Change to mage ._. changed my lolipopring into egg ...
Thennnnnnn ..... DC =.=""
Wth!!!! LOLS!!!! Asked ryan if he was playing ._.
And i was right!!! SERVER DOWN!?!
hahahaha So damn cun~~ I using sniper But cant kill =(
THANKS TO TOMMY~~~ HE BORROWED me the eq ... BORROWED!!!!
So now his practically naked XD
hahahaha.. Need study after WOE... But now woe not yet end server down so how ler?
Hmmm Study a lil better or else tommy leave guild T_T
XD Hmmm... School was fun hahaha
Especially when me and fiona with yee wei go lunch!!! XD
We went MAMAK First ._. but in the end went chinese restaurant XD
damn 6bucks for rice ._.
Seriously full!!!! Hahaha =P
Went back school chat untill no more voice!!!!
Throat is in seriously bad condition =(
T____T SUPER SAD!!!! But can still sing some~~ Wahahaha
Thats all for today~~~ Need Study~~
Plus some photos on top is BREADOU RAGNAROK~~~
Join~~~ XD

Lolz~

Played a while Reached the Endless tower ._. Highest floor = =" Felt happy for telling my two darlings about my past cause they were ok with it =x Better tell celinny about it soon =x hmmm nothing to write =x So..... I'll be going to do my own stuff =x hahaha =D Weeeeee~ Oh yea =x nothing!!! XD

Dots._.

Exam was horrible!!! ._.
Hahahaha!! only science la!!! >_<
What i studied none came out!!! WTH!!!
Lucky yesterday studied with kelly so I know some ans =x
hahahahaha..
In class somehow i think i was emo-ing =x
Thinking a lot!!! ._.
It's over ._. I'm gonna try my best from now on =x
I hope it will all turn out well =x hahaha
Tht is all for today =x
Lazy write =P
hahahahahahaha!!! Tommorow geo = ="
Wakakakakakaa allmooosttt ovverrr!!! ._.

I wonder why? ._.

I wonder why?._.
Why do I compare game with real life [rl].
Was it due to the hurt from the past?
Well talking to Lin helped but...
I still could not forget what I did...
The guilt in me has never left...
Even though I already let them go ._.
It's still in me.. Or is it cause I think too much..
Cupid?Fire? I don't want to remember anything about it!!!
I have to let my past go but...
Every anime song has patches of their memories..
The moment I chose to leave that clan.
I know I can never turn back.
Pretending?Lying? Why did I do all those?
For them to hate me?
WHY DA HELL AM I SO EMO!?!
I should have let it down!!!! WTH IS WRONG WITH ME!
I promised my darlings I won't be emo but..
My past is seriously hunting my future and stopping my every move.
I can no longer be that daring..
The first time I ever tried to confess was played by that person.
Second time was rejected nicely. But why do I keep falling down.
I want to stand up!! I'm not hurt!!! I just don't understand what is pulling me down.
And pressing on my wound!!! I really can't take this!!!

I just want a wish..
If I could get in an accident or anything! ANYTHING!! To allow me to forget the past.
That hunts me so badly!! I don't want my darlings to be worried about me.
And I also don't want them to hate me....
Sorry darlings This post is seriously emo.... >_<>
All I hope now is that my past will slowly slowly fade away ._.
And sorry kelly, celinny for making this post so emo ._.
Lin if your reading this you should know why ._."
Hehes =x Don't scold me o!!!! =D

My New Phone

Today was really shocking to begin with ._. !!!
I was washing my face then come out take my specs and walk to my mom..
She go ask me go see on the table I don't want =x
Then she force me ._.
So I go lor I was like !!! OMHG!!!! NEW PHONE!!!! WHAT THE?!?!
I was like >_< ._.!!! Then my mom said "so now you must get 3A's cause of your new phone" What?!!?! I'm not sure I can get or not le!!! >_< now =".="" while ="x">_<>_<
Anyways yesterdays WOE was sooo FUN!!! =x
Even though no castle but we did try to get ._.
And I was a lil useless as usual..
So now!!!! HUNT!!! MVP!!! =x
Reealllyyy need Pharaoh and Vesper card =x
Wakakakakaka ._. =x
I'm being lame =(
Ok la I better go study d =x
I sneak on the com =x

Todays doings =x

Hmmm. I thought it over today..
Actually I was planning to write about my past but.
I promise my darls I won't emo =P
So I will try my best =D
Hahahaha~~ And 1 funny thing!!!
Pei Yi called kevin LENG ZAI!!!! OMG!!! =x
Hahahaha!!! But he ok ok la
=x and I want to throw away my past =D
So I will stay happy and positive hahaha!!!
Wanna train d =x see ya!!!

Night Time~

My ex smsed me =P I told him too =) He remembered wei!!! XD He got new gf d!!! Told Ya!!!!
We're just friends XD.. Well told some people about it not much wakakakak =P Talk to kelly darlin in breadou juz now ._. She listen and thought me a lot well =) Hahaha Luv her!! Muackkss!! And also my two darlings celinny and linnie!! =P Luv you all!!!! XD Wakakaka.. Hmmmm I think ._. Maybe? XD Not telling what unless darls ask why. XD

Today

Hmmm, I can only blog at night from now on =x kakakaka
Training my homun while finding koleksi soalan PMR =x
But I kinda lazy as usual!!! I need to FOCUS!!! PMR!!! =.=
Then FREEDOMMM!!! =D
Oh yea... Last night my ex smsed me ._.
Surely most of you all who have never read my old blog don't know =x
Well I'm seriously lame in it =x
It was cause of this idiot = =
I made a bad mistake in my whole life ._.
So i closed the old blog wakakaka..
Its not that funny ._.
I don't wanna talk about my past anymore =.=
Please don't ask me =x
But if my darls ask maybe I'll say but I am afraid they might hate me>_<
Well I'm seriously lame now = =
=( anyways need find papers~~
So Blog tonite~ =D

Lantern Festival

Around 7:50 went to Big Fish's house =x
I was alone =x
Very nervous at first but slowly ok =x
Ate some 'chap choi' =D and drank orange juice
then ate moon cake while playing ro~ OMG!!!
I think i reli addicted to it =x
My parents kept asking me =x
Anyway let's continue when we are at Big Fish house ..
Nothing much happened = = so nothing say XD
Wakakaka tht is all went big fish house celebrate oni xD

And also I edited this part =x
I might not be able to online until PMR is over =x
So bye guys~
and my darls but I hope i can sneak on the com wakakakkaa

Tagg =D

Finish The Sentence.
It's your turn. Please copy this to your notes when finished, tag me and others.

1. My ex.. is so lame

2. Maybe I should...focus more on studying and less on gaming.

3. I love...it when things go my way.

4. People would say that I am...useless and ugly =x kakaka

5. I don't understand... love.

6. When I wake up in the morning... I'm always blur

7. I trust... certain people =x.

8. Life is... filled with tears.

9. My past taught me... lots of things

10. I get annoyed when... people try to act smart.

11. Parties are... fun and bored sometimes

12. I wish... I had a boyfriend >_<

13. Dogs...are cute.

14. Cats...are also cute.

15. Tomorrow is.. another day to slack away.

16. I have a low tolerance for... people who swear a lot

17. If I had a million dollars....I'd rather donate half of them ._. too much is no good =x

18. I'm totally terrified of....a lot of things

19. When I look at the night sky I think...it's so beautiful =D

Tagged = Celinny,Will Win,Kai Chi and Nick

Breadou Ragnarok

Hmmm Played and sang =D
Training soul linker until mommy had to go >_<
So train my merchant now =x
Then tonight WOE i gg.com = ="
Lalalalala~~ Dead owes me ICE!!! =D
Wahahahahaha he throw on floor i go pick up ._.
Then Mommy kill me..
Cause I kill her hahahha =x
Spam ss can d =P
I go play again bye~ =D

Today~

Morning Forced self to STUDY!!!
DID IT!!!! Maths and bm =P
Maths paper two did not check so did bm XD
I was shock in the morning ._.
My dog was biting me [as usual] waking me up =P
Then he like knows i dun like him lick me so much.
He go lick me non-stop till i knock his head XD
But he still did it = =" So i had to wake up ._.
Mommy and Daddy went out =x No internet =x

Until now =D
Online Celinny Mommy pm me =x
And now she is not replying me = ="
Breadou server down or what?!?! Why I so unlucky d = ="
So sad~~ T_T
Anyways ._. I duno what to say but..
I think I might be going out tomorrow =x
kekekekeke made new character in Breadou last nite ._.
But now i need to train my synx =.="
XD Nevermind~~ Wahahahaha Train Sinx then get good item =P
For WOE ._.
OH NO!!!! Tonight got WOE?!?! =.= Gg.Com!!! My sniper don't do anything to people ._.
Damn cham!! Sad!! >_<>
Well I wannago chat with mommy celinny and try my breadou XD

Weee~ 3rd post =x

Woe~ Me and Mommy~Mommy and me~

My lovely mommy has always been by my side when I come through sorrow and sadness..
=( But no matter how much saddness I've gone through she is there with me. I hope she will be there for me in the future =) I want to be a very good friend to her and my other darls~ Like Linnie and Kelly~~ Haha..
Currently agree with bro.. ADDICTED TO RO!!! AHHHHH!! =.= So what?!?!
PMR next week ma!!! Must relax and PLAY!!! =D

Second post for today.

I went to an old friends blog.
I kinda miss them..
They did not really update their blog and it remain the same month.
I was the person who chose to leave that area.
As time past, I regretted it.
On wednesday I was alone in school.
I read all the english novel answers and read about The Prisoner Of Zenda.
I finally knew what TrEeTaG-Ann meant.

I have a strong feeling saying that they all hates me already and are no longer my friends..
I took it for granted?Well whose to blame?
I closed my old blog cause of the memories with them..
It will always be in my heart and I still kept those video when we all played together.
I remember a lot people in that game said they like me..
Which I never believe one. = =
Even ann he said he will wait. Actually how long can they wait = =
When time could actually make things fade.
And I was right about all of them? One got gf d. But ann I don't know.
I really miss the other like Larry and Roy.. I had to make them hate me.
I really had to.. ._.

Don't ask why! XD I don't wanna tell =x wakakakaka and
despise me after u read it? It's ur choice >_<"

I want this to be a new start =D

2/10/09.
5.46p.m.
Sunny day.

I want to start a new post =D
Forget the past new beginning =D
Hahahaha =D
I'l believe in love again =)
Forced to hehehehe!!
But.. Anyway I kept hearing the lovely song
''Ice Cream by DNR''
I really want to know what happens if I was someone's gf..
Hahahahahaha lame...
Don't know what to write..
=( Breadou server down once again = ="
kekekeke =D
I think this is a start for this blog again to reopen =P
Oh yea!!! I want to add a new blogskin so =) new work hahaha