Today is the third day my file has been gone.. T^T I MISS IT GOD DAMN MUCH! T^T Who took it ): I want my file back. Just that file please..... T^T I only need it next to me.. I really want it back. I'm sorry to whoever i offended. I just want my file back. What do you want from me? Money? My life? My happiness? Give me my file and you can ruin my life. Please... Give me back my file. I really want only my file and the stuffs back.. I BEG YOU ! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!! I CAN GIVE YOU ANYTHING!! T^T Please.... I beg you.... -emos-
All the unhappy memories. Caused by one person. She is a two faced monster. She ruined my life in form 1. And ruined it again this year. Haihs, Thanks to her innocent look, She is often forgiven and i'm often blamed. Haihs.. Why lar -.-" Ah well, one years friendship is broken thanks to an "Angel" or known as devil..
Sweet memories in that tuition center, Turned into a nightmare, Thanks to the innocent lady, No matter what she did, They all protected her. Am I even their friends?
I guess not. I guess 1 year of friends is broken just for 1 month "innocent" girl? I guess our friendship was all a lie, Getting close to me cause i was close to fiona? Was that it? Without fiona i'm invisible? I know some isn't I know who But I also know those people i mean this time is real.
They are liars? They are also two faced? As friends talking bad about each other behind their backs are just... DISGUSTING! You know what. You want to say don't say in front of that person. Unless you say it to their face. If I'm wrong. Say it to me. Not act like knowing a hell much but truthfully, KNOW NO DAMN CRAP. I know who I'm referring. Many should know from that guy's attitude. He thinks his hell of a great. But guess again. A lot of people hate him. Even his friends.
My friend asked me to make an Anti-Group of him, But it's not only no worth it. It is also wasting and I pity him. Why? Cause he is so evil that so many people hate him. I bet when he see's this he will be like. "What is this gorilla talking, f*ck her..?" Well, it should be obvious. His words to scold people is f*ck anyway. and insulting people? Haihs.. DESPICABLE! He is just an idiot acting smart.
As for another.... Haihs... I really speechless of you. You say in her post, Siapa makan cili, dia pedas right? I wrote before in my before post. But I will just repeat cause I'm sick of you all. If she is suffering, she makan cili right? I'm suffering cause of her. Thanks to her, you come and surround me and question me. More like confront me. YOU WANT KNOW SO MUCH GO ASK B_ _ _ _! He thinks he know so much go ask him! I say that many times, instead you still force me. I hate it when my so called friends whom i treated as a friend treat me back like this. Owh, maybe that barbarian will be saying, "Crap you la gorilla, think you so great a?" I don't care, and also, he himself say we are like one family after the party. In the end BLAME ME FOR MAKING YOU ALL SICK. Next time, WAIT.. there is no next time. Cause i don't know you all. :O I should have remember xD!! You all are just a stranger but i despise you all still :O
You guys just make me sick by thinking you all know. Even if you all know what can you all do? Think again before speaking barbarian. I know you live in deep forest until your language damn rude. You know how rude? Is like **** and **** and **** -.-" You can be like my friend's brother. Filled with foul words. Owh, you might be scolding me. But think again.. Maybe you don't have my blog! I don't want to say foul words so i replace it with another normal word.
To the other readers. I'm sorry for my rudeness but this sadness will continue in my life. Until I really manage to leave that school, Tuition and that two faced girl. I'm really sorry for being rude and acting smart if i did. Or if i offended you all. But if you were me, maybe you will understand. My three buddies, Nata,Fiona and Suki. Understands. They also know what i'm going thru. I love them a lot too :D So, muackksss to them hehe.
Okay, 26/04/10, tues.. Fiona did not come, Alone :O But, went home during recess cause felt sick :O If you think stomach pain is good. Think again -.-" Hmmm also.... went tuition :O Stopped sc~ Finally. Haihs... Sien lor~~~~~~ ): A lot problems in my tuition all is unhappy somemore :( Well, I'll upload photos in the next post. All is stranger.. Haihs. Don't ask me why. All those who scolded me,confront me,and force me... Haihs.... Why are they so... swallow :O Or, are they just two faced like that innocent lady? :O [EDITED] Went out with darlings on 25/04/10 Mon~ Supposedly is ... study group but instead is... See bottom! XD -Yuki-
L-O-V-E It's blind. If you love someone, You won't mind of how they look, You won't mind of how they treat you, You won't want anything back, Cause L-O-V-E is something very generous and caring.
Even if you know there is no starting point from loving someone. You'll just continue without knowing. No matter how many people you've seen. Pretty,Handsome,Princess,Prince. All you'll think of most still is the person you truly love. I maybe able to give good advice but there is also a chance they are bad advice. Different people have their decision. Instead of asking opinions. Why not follow your heart. That way, whatever you do. Risk. Everything. Every move you make. It's from will and not words from other party. That way, they won't be blame and you won't blame them when it's your fault. Cause, when they give a wrong/bad advice 100% you'll be blaming them not yourself. But, if you choose the steps yourself. All you can blame is yourself.
If during form 2 i did not play garena. How would I be now? Will I like him? Some post says, love is not jealousy. Love is not owning. Love is not forcing. But, Love is at its own will. Love needs trust. Love comes on it's own.
Haihs... I decided to write about L-O-V-E Cause of my beloved darling being tensed. FOR ME! My opinion. It cannot be love if it's just and online relationship. Cause you've never met that person and you don't know their personality. If its cause of looks... I'm speechless. Cause love is not from looks but from heart. From the bottom of your heart.
If other readers who thinks I'm talking crap, I don't care. Cause this is my opinion not yours. If yours is a total opposite i don't really bother. But so far... the word L-O-V-E I've seen in teenagers are unhappiness at a certain stage. They maybe happy moments but. They can also be sad when you are unhappy. But they are also happy moments when your positive. Thats all I'll say :O I've wrote so much =.=" Anyway, I hope no one will say i'm talking crap >w<
Sick in the afternoon. Took a nap from 2.30 till 5. Felt really dizzy :O Went to check temperature and it was.... 38.4 :| OMG! Quickly call my mummy to tell her and ask for the other thermometer. In the end it wasn't at home. Mummy put inside her school bag! :O Watch tv with dizzy-ness :( Sms darling grandma~ Then mummy came home and check my temperature. The fever went down maybe cause i took the vitamin c. :O' Mummy told me go take bath and i did~ After bathing still felt dizzy but rest.
Went for dinner and felt like vomiting ): So dizzy until... beh tahan -.-" Sweat like....under hot hot hot sun! XD Came home and watch tv. Now online and talk to darling mummy and grandma -nata&sho yin- xD!! I <3>
And also my great grandmother Fiona~~ :D OWH!!!!!!!!!!!!! And my beloved darling auntie pei yi. Not to forget, a guy whom i haven't forget until now :x Anyways! See ya~ Nights~ -Yuki-
Have took some photo's of myself. :O Ugly xD!! Anyway, yesterday's stuff. 23/04/10. It was a very boring day :O But at night was nice cause I watch the drama's ending the third time!! T^T I miss it sooo damn much. <3>
I should take my breakfast :O !! I haven't eat. Nothing much to say anyways~ I love you forever my darling :D
So happy, my phone can use msn! :D -can msn in tuition :O- xD!! Hmm, Nothing much happen today. :O XD!! Well, My phone is pink, and special. Owh, can't wait to go out buy a new bag~ Then, I wanna work to buy a camera. So I can take down every moment and post in my blog. I wanna make my blog just like the blog in the drama. xP Every thing that happen in school. Real, no fake. My feelings are the same too~.
As for now, I lost those friends who I think never wanted me as a friend. Maybe thanks to her, They decided to stop being my friend. They have all died in my heart. Whenever I see them, they are like a total stranger. You can't say that as ignoring cause I no longer know them. I also don't want to care or know what happens. Even if the truth is exposed. Even if they want to talk to me. I 'll just be a stranger and walk away.
Online friends that sms me, If i don't know them in rl. I stop sms-ing them cause it's no point. I don't want to have online friends when I don't know who are they. They are a total stranger, fat,skinny, boy , girl. I don't know. If I choose to trust them. If I was tricked. What can I do? I want to trust only few people.
Main is my family. Second is my three buddies which I will always remember. 1,Fiona who was with me when I'm down and always supporting me. 2,Nata who was my friend for about 7 years and always by my side. 3,Suki who is also my friend for 7 years and also there for me. As for the rest. It's not I don't trust you all. Is, the trust will not be strong. With my intuition, I'll choose who to trust. O.o~ Why am I talking about trust all of a sudden. Haihs. :D! SMILE!!! NO MATTER HOW SAD OR ANGRY I AM! I must smile! I need to get a camera -.-" So I can take every moment. Put in my blog. And show every moment with no tears. Need to study hard this year. So next year not much tension. Maybe in Jun, I'll focus on studying. After final exam, I'll find a part time job. Hope it'll be enough for a camera :O Kays, I'll go now~ -Yuki-
O.o, my title reminds me of an old friend. Which has died in my heart. Okay, lets remember what happened. Mon 19/04/10, No assembly. Class like usual with econ -.-" After that, recess happy~ With darling Fiona. After recess syok! No teacher come in. Talk to Fiona Chee's gang while she doing work. :O They all talk about Sunway! :O After that, bm period started to play Truth or Dare. Play until syok o~ Haha! Tue 20/04/10, Today, hang out with fiona~ Wrote on letter to forgive kylie. Haihs. Play with fiona~ Until ending moral, she stomach keep pain. Then, sc... OMG! DENTAL CHECK UP! Fiona no card so happy xD But in the end we both went to check! :D After that, we talked outside then.. Wei Xuen, Swee Yuen, Ming Xian, Dylan, Mei Kei and me. We play the "jumping over people" game xD! Mei kei was jumped over xD Then me, mei kei and swee yuen squat xD Then lydia say to me, I sure safe cause i first. Ming Xian jump and... ... ..... ...... ....... PASS! xD!!!! So syok! But fiona uncomfortable so I follow her go back class. Got work -.-" I do work while beloved fiona sms... HAHAHAHAHA! Then balik~OWH AND !! Candy came to my school and I was quite startle-.- Until I fall into a hole -.-" See leng lui until like that xD!! Actually I was more likely attracted to her hair~ XD!! It was so... PURPLE! XD Then i pulled yee wei's hand. :O Sorry! >w<
Wed 21/04/10, Today a... Fiona no go school... Alone.. ): But, kylie and I talked. Now people asking me why I suddenly so close to her. o.O I don't want to be so close to her anyways. I rather be normal friends. But I miss fiona the whole day xD!!! But, I miss... my drama more! XD School normal,boring nothing to say. I finished my drama. Went out with nata. Plan to watch it again tomorrow :P Byee~ -Yuki-
Pretty happy today~ I finally got to talk to Pei Yi~!! Kept calling her leng lui~ :P Quite happy~
After recess, NO TEACHER!!! AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Me and Fiona super happy xD 4sas1 chinese gang almost all discuss and talk~ Then, play TRUTH OR DARE~! Very fun xD! Hahahahahaha, It's quite fun~
Finish school, came home. Eat. Came my own home. Shower. Online. Watch tv ~! xD :D Freeeeeeeeeeee~ Shit! Homework -.-" Byeeeeeeeeees~ -Yuki-
A few of my newest photo taken thru webcam :D That cute star is called Nana, From fioNA,NAta,shoNA :D I <3>
Even tho I cried a lot on the star. Now it's going to my lucky star~ :D
I'm happy that I have people supporting me~ So I'm going to stand back up!! :D And, I think I'll just smile at her :D There is nothing to ignore or hide anymore. :D I wanna be a good person~ :D Hehehehehhee :P I lazy name those who supported me but the main are my besties :D I don't want name them cause I don't want cause trouble later. Haha, Thanks a lot to drama, I finally feel relax.
Owh, I can't wait for school, Want to study more! :x Hey, comment on my tagboard. Should I go for mass com? Or should I just go for... computer design? I no need draw in computer design xD So sad need to choose between one of them >w< Haha, kay lar~ I stop writing~ :D :D -Yuki-
Haihs, I finally know why Makan cili, sendiri pedas. -something like that- XD Well, Firstly, She herself makan cili. Then now we ignore her, She pedas xD!! For me, I don't eat cili. Thats why no pedas. You think I sad and angry?
Hmmm, I'm angry and disappointed that my FRIEND hurt another of my friend. Haihs, And also, You all.. Blinded by her. Her innocent look so powerful until my friend who dislike her ask me forgive her. Lucky I stay strong cause, I have proof that your wrong. With how I say it. I can still quarrel back.
Even my mom. She say no proof can't I make proof into WORDS! And, she believe me. If I wrong why would people believe me? If I no proof why would they bother? And also, Please, Of all people why must she ask my FRIENDS and not her own. Her so called friends, also know everything. Unless she knows herself she is wrong and making me get all the blame. Aiya.. Damn sick of you all. I don't give a damn of bastards, jerks. I admit i gave one of your gang and I think you all will know who. The guy who acts smart as though he knows everything. Talking crap and making rubbish talk all the time. I call him a bastard. You all? You were once my friend last year. But now, thanks to an "innocent" girl you all leave me. Haihs, true colors. Finally know who you all really are.
Also, If I'm wrong, why would my 3 Besties stay by me? They have their choice. I can't force them and I can't do cute faces cause I hate it. It's soo.... F-A-K-E! Well, I know since form 1 she was fake. But I did not know she was so smart. Haihs. So what?~ Study important! At least got, F-N-S~ Enough for me. They trust me and will stay by me. Make them sad, I make you pay.
No more sad or emo. No more tears and cry. Haha, I love F-N-S~ You all are the best!! <3~ id="gwProxy" type="hidden">
I seem like I'm happy, I look like I'm happy but deep inside it's not like that. Fiona did a lot of things and I really appreciate it. (: Time will go slowly, Patience is the key, But, why must you test me so much? I'm really tired. If only it could be exposed, But at the same time I don't want it to, Why do I still pity someone who has made so many people stress me? Haihs, She is really smart. Using my friends, Using me, Using everyone around her. Just like a toy, She asks us to walk, we walk. If we disobey, she will either cry or go angry. Well, 1000 litre of tears a day. Is it enough for her to make everyone ask me? I think no~ More then that?
Well, I really appreciate what Jordan is trying to tell me. Somehow, I just notice. A lot of things cannot be said by words. xD -Yuki-
Haihs~ Today damn heartache. My friends are leaving me slowly one by one~ But I made Fiona sad ): HAHAHAHAHA! In the end was cause the koperasi open late! HAHA! <3 Fiona and Sho yin and Nata~ Thanks for supporting me ~!! :D Having you all is enough then those who just guess and not know the truth. Especially someone who scolded me for no reason in fb. Deleted him though. It killed me even more when I thought about what me and my friends shared during the first few months.
However, from now onwards. I won't care what my friend does to you, Ignore what ever you tell others. Ignore what ever you say to me. And pretend being fine. I don't want to cause trouble. I'll talk to you~ Yeah! But, I'll still talk more to Fiona and share more time with her! Laughing a lot with her around~ (: But I almost cried also ): Cause, I saw how my friends trust you and not me?! A person known for a year.
One thing I feel like asking you. Are you faking in front of everyone cause of Him? Or are you really not lying? I don't know what to do but. I chose to not care, not bother, about you or even.. Trust you. So~ I can be a happy person~ :D <3 those people who trust me and is my TRUE TRUE friends :D Muackss~~ XD :P
Wow, My friend.. I really speechless. She made your life shatter in a day. I could pay back for you but you don't want. I really respect you. I won't take any actions on that girl then. I really don't know what else to say.. -Yuki-
